I’m about half way through my fourth week of DDPYoga, and I’m still enjoying it, at times loving it. As much as one can love the process of transformation. I am learning to love this journey, and measure the positives with more gratitude than I did in any of the previous attempts at following a program. This is not easy, but it is possible. I am starting to feel that.
I feel empowered and not discouraged in this program. In many ways, this is like by 5 bazillionth attempt at losing weight, getting healthy, transforming my life. The difference here? For the first time, I think I mentally and physically feel that I am really taking care of myself. I end every DDP Yoga routine feeling centered, happy and proud. That is a change.
When I used to power lift, I felt angry after banging weight all day. When I used to Body Build, I felt self-conscious that I never saw the results I wanted. When I did Krav Maga, I bleed. When I did Crossfit, I hated everyone. P90X was probably the biggest discouragement of them all. I was so jazzed about that program, and then about week three, I just could not hack it any longer.
Bootcamp was by far my most long lived and successful run since I started trying to get fit in 2007, but there is something different about this. I feel like I am healing something.
I am realizing physically how beat up the ole’ battle wagon really was. I wrote my last entry about Bob and my session with him, and all the injuries he addressed, and in the time since my session the swelling drifted down and I can feel my body releasing so much tension. I carried so much stress in my body. No wonder I could not lose weight. Now, as things loosen, lengthen and strengthen I find more nicks, pops and aches. It is as if years of growing into adult hood are now being untied. I feel truly aware of my body for the first time, and there is room to grow into that space more.
Now, I am not your typical yoga enthusiast. No one would pick me out in a line up and say, ‘That Guy, he does yoga.” More like, “That Guy… he ate a lot of cheeseburgers.” But I’m now a guy who does yoga. Never would have guessed that as much as six months ago.
Here is to our health.