Label it Failure. Why not? I had those wonderful good intentions, and this blog is a graveyard of good intentions and clean starts, followed by the eventual confession of failure. I started the #BlizzconSlimdown in April, and it started off very well. I dropped some weight, was re-focused and felt good about thing through May.
Then crazy happened. June and July were wastelands of stress and exhileration and a pace of life I find myself woefully regretting, becasue that break neck speed swallowed my focus. It swallowed my drive, and it distracted me with excuses and empty promises. It cost me. It cost me time and committment, but then suddenly I came out the other end and realized with regret, that I lost about two and a half months. So… we move on. We re-group. We re-focus.
A well intentioned follower on twitter told me to not sweat it. Why was I trying to lose weight by Blizzcon? I didn’t have anyone to impress. What a lovely thing to say. Really, that’s great to hear that people will accept you no matter what. I own this is my own issue though. It’s my problem, and it’s not that I want to impress people with a sweet six pack of abs. I just simply want to be LIGHTER.
Last Blizzcon I came home on Friday night, completey spent, exhausted, tired. I had gone hard from 7am – 12pm and I was feeling every bit of it. I strolled into Blizzcon at 299 lbs. Big for me. I could feel everyone of those extra 99 lbs from my ideal weight. This year committments look to be the same if not worse. I cannot walk in there at a near 300 lbs again.
I have to drop some weight. Time to re-group, again. I have been eating Slow Carb now this week and last week. I have started doing DDP Yoga again and incorporating walks and swimming 2 – 3 times a week. We make mistakes, we move on, we get better.
That is the Goal. I am hopeful. Stats tomorrow.